Still Fighting

Never sensed such ecstasy,
content with everything......
Felt like a princess, lived like a queen!!
Anticipation in heart, spring in my steps,
twinkle in eyes, smirk on my mouth....
I was flying in the air, soaring high,
carefree as an eagle....pristine....

I knew,
was so damn sure...nothing could go wrong;
Not now,
when I was walking on the clouds,
blinded by overconfidence,
setting aside all the doubts......
Burying the worries deep inside,
tossed all the subtle warnings,
refused to take note of anything...!!

I never really saw it coming,
Or
Maybe i never really wanted to.....
And all of a sudden,
completely out of the blue,
there it was,
gawking at my face................smirking back!!!


Darkness so intense, engulfed everything.......so completely!!!
Leaving me astonished....dumbfounded.....
Though it was all over the place,
surrounding me,
within me,
still i couldn’t embrace it...!!
It cut me off from everything,
one and all,
even from itself!!
I couldn’t see, couldn’t say....
couldn’t be seen, couldn’t be heard...
made me despondent in every possible way!!

Ohh!!
Never felt so poignant, desolated, solitary.....
Dissatisfied with myself,
felt empty, started living like a ghost!!
Despair in heart,
heavy steps,
eyes blinded,
mouth grim!!
Hauled from the sky, wings tattered, thrown on the ground..!!

I know,
perfectly well....
I can never be certain...
Not at this instant, when i have nothing up my sleeves, nowhere to head to.....stuck in a never ending black hole!!!
Not anymore.....

Regardless of everything, my soul struggles....!!
Repudiating the prophecy..!!
Refusing to give up...!!
Continues skirmishing, till my last breath deceives me...
Fighting with all its might, all the energy...
Fighting for fresh air,
for daylight,
for freedom,
for LIFE...!!

Its still fighting....!!!